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The Pursuit Of Purity, Pt 2

(Please read this: The contents below might have quite sensitive issues as it talks about human relationships. Be advised. I have tried to construct my blog post to be as fair as possible. Please be understanding, because this is what I have struggled upon. The contents below are what I have remained in my heart. My apologies to all if what I wrote down has make anyone disappointed, upset or even rage.)

 

Dear God, how can I stay focused in your presence, just to be with you, and to be close to You. Lord, I need You to be close to me. Why, am I so ungrateful? How can I still remain in bondage, after all the things that You have done to me. You hand-picked me up, washed me till I am clean by your precious blood, clothed me, and provide me. Lord, I want to thank you for all that you have done. But Lord, sometimes I still want to go back and wallow inside the pool of dirt. I am scared, and that the bondage is still holding me back on. After all these years, of struggling against it, had so many thoughts of wanting to quit it for good, but it soon come into my life. The thought of having that in a part of my life, changed the perception in my life. It is corrupting my mind. Having the thought is like taking a bottle of poison labeled "Natural Honey". Like drug, it always make me come back to it, till I am addicted to it. All those sights and sounds, they are ever so near to me. Lord, how can I stayed focused to your presence, remain in Your sight, and never want to leave. I realized that I had not been doing my own part, of wanting to see you each and every day. Am I complaining to you, or is it that I just need someone to give a response. Lord, help me to hear your still small voice. Your Word says that I am your sheep, and You are my Shepherd, and I know Your voice. Let it be done in my life. I know I have experienced that in my life, and that You are trying to tell me, about the ways to keep focus on You and You alone.

I am so tired of repeating the same process of over and over again. The cycle is somewhat like what was happened in the Book of Judges, of your people sinned against you, and were oppressed. And so, they cried it out to You, and You sent a representative to judge over them. Having those lustful desires really can kill my mind and corrupt it deeply inside my heart. It is troubling me to think that those desires can change your mindsets. I want to get it right. I want to think that females are created beings just like man, and that we stand equal to each other. Standing equal, we have the same rights and privileges to have honour and respect. Females too, deserved respect from others, dignity and acknowledgements and having the same things as men has it. Therefore, let us honour them as they are. Treat them like how you treat yourself. "Love your neighbours as yourself".

Treating a person as yourself, means that you need to respect, acknowledge, honour, love and to care for the person. Do not think of them as just another instrument or any other tool. Treat another person right. Love them, for the Lord has loved us.

The Pursuit Of Purity

Dear Lord, I pray that Lord will give me strength, commitment, discipline and endurance to pursue a life of purity. Lord, time and time again have I sinned against you, and frankly I felt so tired repeating those sins. It makes me really want to be cleanse completely from those sins. I understand that this decision is on daily basis, as I submit my flesh to you each and every day of my life. This part of life in pursuit of purity: Staying pure from sexual sins.

    My opinion is that men were created to be sexually excited by sight. Therefore, when we see something or someone, our body activates. Thus, it is our decision to choose to submit our flesh to God or submit our flesh to our desire. The Lord has said to keep ourselves pure before Him, each and every day of our life. Residual images that displeases God often reveals inside my mind. For the Lord has said, that our heart is the temple of our Holy Spirit, and therefore it is our responsibility to keep it pure, every day of our life. So, Lord, help me to control myself and get rid from remembering those images. The sights and colours often lures me to the desire. Sometimes Lord, it is my stupid decision and it is not the temptation that leads me to those sins, as I ventured through looking those images, often because loneliness. Help me to divert my attention back to you, back to your holy sight, and back to your presence, Lord. In this manner, I can be close to you, and will not commit the same sin again.

    I have a thought that when I am going to be married, I am gonna sing this songs with my beloved, holding hands while singing to our Lord, our matchmaker.

Song: For This Cause – Hillsong



Hope has found its home within me

Now that I've been found in You

Let all that I am be all You want me to be

'Cause all I want is more of You



Let Your presence fall upon us

I want to see You face to face

Let me live forever lost in Your love

'Cause all I want is more of You

All I want is more of You



I'm living for this cause

I lay down my life

Into Your hands



I'm living for the truth

The hope of the world

In You I'll stand

'Cause all I want is You

All I want is

All I want is You

Jesus

Song: With All I Am – Hillsong

Into your hand

I commit again

with all I am

for you Lord



you hold my world

in the palm of your hand

and I'm yours forever



CHORUS

Jesus I believe in you

Jesus I belong to you

you're the reason that I live

the reason that I sing

with all I am



I'll walk with you

wherever you go

through tears and joy

I'll trust in you



and I will live

in all of your ways and

your promises forever



CHORUS



I will worship I will worship you forever



CHORUS

 

Hey ya guys, shasiburi…..

Hao jiu bu jian le. This is the first time I'm using Word 2007 to publish my blog.

There was this song that moved my heart quite recently, I can never stop thinking and listening to it.

Sea of Love ~English Version~ by TSUBAKI

This song is a soundtrack from Densha Otoko, a romantic comedy.

love, it always makes me heave a sigh
love, i know it shows me smiles and joys
but love, it sometimes makes me lose my sight
so i say i'll never fall in love again
if you want me to trust your words
if you want me to take your hands
if you want me to hold each other
show me what i want
you wonder why i wanna be with you
you need to understand the reasons,but
i can believe in you will make me strong
so i'll be over yester-love
i know i have to face the fear and tears
to be close to you
please don't make me drift away
keep your eyes on me in the sea of love
once we fall into the sea of love
we can't keep the senses as before
love will ask us too much than we can
till the day we lose our faith and fall apart
i think it's won't last forever
we're not meant to be together
no one but you can save me
from the despair in my heart
i wonder why you wanna be with me
no matter where we are, don't let me go
give a thousand words of love to me
to let me make sure where i am
i know you 're always done your best for me
to be close to me
you are only one for me
keep my eyes on you
sea of love
just you and i can see
the sea of love
spread the end of love
please show me the light and let me through
say come to me
hold out your hand to me
to let me be in your love
the things i need to be is your honesty
you wonder why i wanna be with you
you need to understand the reason,but
i can believe in you will make me strong
so i'll be over yester-love
i know i have to face the fear and tears
to be close to you
please don't make me drift away
keep your eyes on me
i wonder why you wanna be with me
no matter where we are,don't let me go
give a thousand words of love to me
to let me make sure where i am
i know you're always done your best for me
to be close to me
you're only one for me
take my hand
you're only one for me
keep your eyes on me
in the sea of love

Face 2 fAKE -Chanto tsukandemasu kara

Sometimes, I do visualize myself as Yamada-san, and his character reveals my own weaknesses.

Guess I watched too much of this lovey story. It's just that it is not my time yet, and I don't want to be hurted, thinking that I will surely failed in having a relationship,

Well, my friend says that there will be always someone watching over me, and only God knows that.

This few days, I had been annoyed by the song, and it seems it is bothering my feelings. But, I just couldn't help it, guess I'm helpless to it. My situation now is like I'm craving for something intact, and that desire is juz fulfilled by juz listening to these songs. I juz don't want to be hurted again, and I would suppress my feelings for now.

(listening back and forth Diamond Dust, Sea of Love on iTunes)

Title : A few good music albums

1. "Departure" by Carla Werner

This is one of my friend's recommendation from his huge music vault, that initially i do not know where he get all these beautiful music from. The reviews which i read from various websites, suggesting that this singer/songwriter, wrote lyrics that are simple, and very down-to-earth. One reviewed that the her voices are simply pleasing, which i couldnt disagree on it. Most frequently played:

1. "Heaven Is a Word"
2. "Wanderlust"
3. "Under"

2. "Wreck Of The Day" by Anna Nalick

I picked up this piece of music also from my friend, and the whole album is worth listening. There is this song called "Citadel" which remains as one of my most played song in my discman, and the songs inside are simply nice. Her single, "Breathe (2 AM)" also holds a place in my heart, but less compared to "Wreck Of The Day", and maybe "Paper Bag". Most frequently played:

1. "Breathe (2 AM)" – 4:39
2. "Citadel" – 2:47
3. "Paper Bag" – 3:27
   
4. "Wreck of the Day" – 4:06

3. "From Nothing to One" by The Perishers

The Perishers, a Swedish indie rock band. This album doesnt have all the hard rock music, but just soft rock, and it is really soothing. The lyrics are just simple, quite down-to-earth. Very relaxing, said a review.

Most frequently played:

1. When I Wake Up Tomorrow
2. In The Blink Of An Eye
3. Someday
4. When I Fall
4. EP by Rachael Yamagata

A nice EP, picked up from Chris, and it is quite nice, and her voice is quite special, quite unique in a way. Some of my favourites would be

1. Collide (appeared also on Steroscope by Bumpus)
2. Known for Years
3. Worn Me Down (EP Version)
4. The Reason Why (EP Version)

5. "Under The Iron Sea" by Keane

Keane, a British trio, hailed from a small town called Battle. A piano rock band, which means they do not use guitar to produce rock music, but simply use piano, and some pedal effects. This is their second album, and quite nice on the overall. "Atlantic", "Is It Any Wonder", "Nothing In My Way", "Leaving So Soon", "A Bad Day" does have a place for my heart, and that i would like to play whenever i felt it. "Is It Any Wonder" talked about the recent incidents about war in Iraq and their thoughts about war.

Most frequently played:

1. "Atlantic"
2. "Is It Any Wonder"'
3. "Nothing In My Way"
4. "Leaving So Soon"
5. "A Bad Day"
6. "Hamburg Song"

6. "Hopes And Fears" by Keane

Their debut album, and a very nice album for a start. I would say that every song is pretty nice, and the overall, is that this is one good album. I may say that the every song is my favourite, but the ones that really can make me to want to sing, and become my evergreen songs, would be "Bedshaped" and "Somewhere Only We Know".

Favourite:

1. "Somewhere Only We Know"
2. "This Is The Last Time"
3. "Bend And Break"
4. "We Might As Well Be Strangers"
5. "Everybody’s Changing"
6. "Your Eyes Open"
7. "She Has No Time"
8. "Can’t Stop Now"
9. "Sunshine"
10. "Untitled 1"
11. "Bedshaped"

(To be Continued...)

Log book dated:Thursday, 21th December 2006

Title: YouthQuake part 2

3rd day:Actually, to tell the truth, ive quite forgotten the events in my 4 days camp, except that we were having fun. Cos the morning after my graveyard shift, i did not straight to bed, but continue to help out in the station games. The 1st thing, is to prepare 3 buckets full of water balloons in the toilet. Ruth, David and I were having so much fun in the toilet with statements made by Ruth that the fun we were having sounds so wrong. Well, everyone of us had a skin grill (sun burns), well except for Vivian, which doesn't stop applying her own sun block. We had so much fun getting splashed by water, and we even offer our water blessings to the campers, after the games. Good.

That nite was good as we were being ministered of. The presence of God was sweeping through us, we felt so joyful, and peaceful, as the presence continue to linger in our midst. Many were slain, some were crying, some were holding hands in prayer, and in agreement, and seeing that, makes my heart want to thank and praise the Lord for bountiful love and mercy, for He lone deserves all of these.

PRAISE THE LORD !!!

Comes the fourth day, when i had this chance in helping out people filling out the personal development plan (which is my very first time). And comes the parting moment, when i had to say good bye to many of them, especially some of them who are close to me like Joanna, Yong Huat, and the others.

Well, after the camp, i applied industrial training (sort of a little training) in Malayan Sugar Manufacturing Co Bhd (MSM). Erm, the first few days was really boring, as i was not given any jobs, and the staffs were so busy with their tasks. Eventually, yesterday i was given a job of sampling the wastewater samples taken from the vacuum pans, for sucrose content.At least some job for me to learn a few things. I guess thats about it.

Wang Lee Hom's creation accompanied me throughout the penning of my thoughts.

Titled: YouthQuake 2006 (part 1)

Hello, everyone. Its been a long time since i penned my thought on this info highway here. Been away on a hiatus just for the prep for the final exams, and for the camp in KKB (Kuala Kubu Bharu) Ive signed up to be a helper. Well, i should update to u guys bout how these 4 days i have sleeped, helped, and basically shared with around 500+ people in a campsite. Well, here it goes.

1st day: log dated 7th December 2006

the previous night have been a boring one, cos got up to games, dramas, and of course, stayed up till late at night (dragged till the wee hours of the morning). As expected, not enough sleep. Well, i switched on my stayed up and have fellowship mode as i traveled to KKB by bus. after reaching the National Service campsite (PLKN), the first task for me is to help around in the registration. After series of questions posted to the campers bout camp rules, wat things to declare, i went straight to the briefing bout the camp. I was asked to change my dept to security. When i looked through the schedule for the security dept, gosh!!! my first task as the security officer is from 12am - 4 am!!!!. Yeah baby, this is going to a cool one. Next, comes dinner. As i helped around placing plates, scooping food to the campers, i was blessed as i helped around, and be able to fill up the gaps of ever-insufficient man-power in this camp. the 1st plenary session was fun, and we have this person who came all the way from the States, flown to this part of the world to come and meet us. Curtain closes as my MD's ringing in my ears during the boring 12-4am activity.

2nd Day: dated 8th December 2006

The second day was nothing much, as i had this not-enough-sleep mode. Goin through a series of helping out in the canteen and be able to stayed up despite my tiredness. During tea breaks, we have this huge amount of tea poured over the cups, but because, the amount of people that were having it was like so few. Then we decided to give some to the workshop speakers. Well, the second day i was on duty from 4am - 8 am, guess it wasn't a bad one. Before i went for my duty, the campsite had a blackout, so we went around the campsite, putting candles around the toilets.

Well, guess now i need to have a break.
I will pen my thoughts whenever im free.

Titled : Gubra

This is a sequel to the show, Sepet that was introduced by Yeow Chong, a story of a malay girl with a chinese boy, reflecting the societal aspects in Malaysia. The sequel to the story, Sepet, continues on the married life of Orked, that continues on her life, as the death of Jason still lingers in her mind, shown as Alan, Jason's brother brought her to Jason's room and showed the unsend letters from Jason, and the photos that they shared.

The story continues on with a young Malay couple, whose neighbours are the 2 prostitutes,Temah and Kiah which they didn't despise but, continued to encourage them and gave them support, but spiritually and mentally as they provide religious lessons for them, and for their sons, Adam and Shahrin.

The young couple supported Temah, as she realises that she contracted HIV, by giving her spiritual support by offering her religious lessons, and to teach her how to read Arabic and Al-Qur'an. Kiah, on the other hand, wanted to collect money for some unknown reason, chooses the client, who actually abused her physically, and the most painful scenes that i watched, is when he throws the money at her when she was sitting on the bed, and the bad remark that he received when he walked out to the taxi, that says that the"stray dogs are better than you, you animal".

Another story unfolds, regarding Orked when she found out that her spouse having an affair with another girl, that despite his effort to earn the forgiveness from Orked, she couldnt continue on with him, and so she had to break up with him.

Ultimately, the stories are about the lives of the women. While, some are enjoying their good life, marrying the right spouse (like Orked's parents, the young Malay couple), while some of them are being abused, and others are being betrayed, and one who seek to stop fighting with each other, and who just that she can run away from the spiral of unforgiveness. I, myself am particularly touched by the stories, of how different women going through their lives, and the part where Jason's father seek to forgive his wife when she said that they have been fighting for most of their married life, like she was giving way to reestablish back their intimate relationship.

The last part, is where the actors, and the actresses who are having prayers, and hence the story ends with it.

My Shopping Adventures In Kuala Lumpur

Kuala Lumpur, Home to the Petronas Twin Towers, the so called heart of Shopping Center in Malaysia. These few days have been exciting one, cos i went for shopping trip to KL, with my mom, bro, and his gf, Brenda. 4 days of walkin through shopping malls, and it's been a quite tiring ones. I've had plans of buying DVD burner, earphones, and some MD blanks to replenish my supplies of removable music collections, haha.

These few days, we tried to go through some of the popular malls (Suria KLCC, LowYat, Midvalley.... ) to go through the usual shopping spree, like the typical stuffs (clothes, more clothes, bags, shoes, ....). We went through Petaling Street and their ever-famous flea market, and of course, good food.
We never forget the famous lou shu fan with lots of minced meat (i loved it).

Well, we also gone through several miss turnings as my bro are not used to the KL routes, but i guess he gained more skills in navigating around KL.

Well, that's about it .

Log book dated Thursday, 19th October 2006, in the year of our Lord ( not to mention the little book, created by Aldous Huxley, Brave New World, "in the year of our Ford, Henry Ford")

Today is my day off cos this usual day is my laboratory , but my lab session is over, so i can utillise this day fully for studying, turned out that i spent my whole afternoon enjoying games. Nothing much for today, but tonight, we had a Bible study conducted by a FES worker, Li Moi, which continued on the Gospel of Mark, chap 2. Well, we basically enjoyed the opinions shared by some of us, and what she did, is asking us to post questions which we will answer it together, in a way that a non-believer who will understand what we say bout the Bible. This approach is to speak the people's language, as she puts it.

After the discussion, Melissa, Kelvin and me had a nice chat to wait for the rain to stop, and to wait for her course mate, Wai Lun, birthday party. I didn't really much want to join the party, and so, i bid farewell to them.

These few days, Ive been not faithfully with the Lord, due to my sinful nature resurfacing up and take control of me. But, i was glad and very sorry enough to come back to God, and stay true to Him, but still, i've lacking nourishment from the Lord each day (daily devotion).

Well, i guess, that's bout it .

(was listening to the J-Pop music in my MD)

Hi guys, juz came back this afternoon from Teluk Batik for a CG outing. Yeah! it turned out to be alright, though Jesse and I reluctant to go. We had games, and barbeque. It was nice food, and Soon Wei's Dad belanja us lunch. Well, the food had one more specialty, which was created by Yeow Chong, our senior who have graduated now, and the specialty, is Banana Bacon. Nice . Bacon rolled with banana and grilled with coated honey. We had ourselves a good time during games, and also games after lunch, which is story telling, and as the story develop with the help of Josiah, Henry, and Melissa, it got crappier, and it couldnt come out from the vortex of crappiness. haha

Well, that's bout it ..

Hope to post more in the days to come.

Today basically woke up late, because of wated time sitting in front of the computer, playin an RPG map from Warcraft 3. Well, after handed in the lab report, after Michelle sent it to me, i went for lunch.

Well, met up with Felix, Suet Yeng, and Isaac, and had lunch with them. After an interesting egg omelette, i wnet up to meet Ginn and his EDX gangs, cos never go for the EDX roadshow before. Just now, spent bout few hrs just wasted away. Was planning to read Heat Transfer, but was playin also. Now, my mind was flooded with past events, i mean during my primary, secondary, and those events are mostly nightmares.

Thinking bout the stupid things that i did last time, was so foolish, and basically ruining my own reputation as a human being. (Unfortunately unable to share those deepest thoughts). Now, listening to the Faye Wong's songs can transform me back to those times. Those times of failures, failures of some relationships (well, it never started, so..... ), and few other tragic events. Thinking bout the times when i was in Standard 6 in my primary school, those tragic moments, that haunts me sometimes, as i reflect my whole life. Secondary school life was relieved, partly learned from a hard way of handling troubles, and (i guess i should say catatrophes). Now, thinking back from all these 20 years, i learned several truths that money cannot be bought of.

Present Day,

Thinking back from a year ago in UTP, also was foolish to handle relationship (pardon me, to some of the persons involved but then again, it never started). I was so stupid enough, that now, i won't dealt those things anymore, probably forever.

Well, i guess these relationship struggles, will continue to haunt me, not unless, i have wisdom to handle it . Meanwhile, i was glad enough that though these things have some lasting memories in me, but I still have the Lord to guide me, each moment.

Sorry for those that i have hurted as i walked on this life, and forgive me, of some stupid actions that i had made.

haiz, wat happened to me, do all the work till no time to study for separation process I quiz. Got my worst marks ever. Simply worst. Cos, maybe didnt put more effort into it, and always last minute finish whatever that needs to be done. Well, that's about me for today
But, i did prepared well in my Numerical Methods quiz, praise the Lord for that lar basically.

I always forgot to thank the Lord, though, the mind suddenly pops up, and then it's time to just pause for a while, trying to think back what God has done for me for that day especially, and thanking Him for what He has done.

Thank You Lord, that i can learn my lesson well (failing my quiz)
thank You Lord, for each moment, You are always there by my side, to guide me, and to teach me, and to rebuke me if it needs to be done ,

Thank You Lord, that now my life is not a mess, everyday, You plan for everything to pass on as You wanted, and it's good (though my quiz sucks big time!!!!)

Thank You LORD !!!!!!!!!

Well, that's it !!!

Yesterday, was pretty much exciting, bcoz it is praise and worship nite!!!. To tell the truth, i wasnt really expect something great to me yesterday, maybe bcoz most of the songs selected r very new to me . But, praise the Lord, for He works in mysterious ways. a song reminds me of the first time i went snorkelling in Pangkor. We were there for Jeremiah School reunion. When, i went into the sea, i was a bit afraid, but pretty much fun and exciting. Till, most of them want to go to deeper place of the sea, that i reluctant to go there. my pastor, Pastor Chris (aka Pastorpher) insisted that we should go there and see. Well, from there, he grabbed my hand and we swam there. This also happens to the spiritual part of us, that when the Lord wants to move into a higher level or from glory to glory, that sometimes, we might be facing uncertainties, fear..... But the Lord is ever ready to hold our hand and guide us in every moment of our life. So, for this, lets go deeper into His love, and lets dig deeper into His awesome, and wonderful presence.

Well, that's it for today,

Cya

Hie everyone here who just passed by, i welcome u into my blog (my first pet-project )
heheh.Just wanna say thanks for visiting my blog and maybe even pen a little thoughts on this blog.I'm William Wan (preferably willy). I am an ordinary person serving an extraordinary God, heheh yeah , best person in this universe, and a great person to work with. Well, basically this is my personal blog, sharing my daily journey to this life, and to have a great person working alongside with me. Had a great meeting with my supreme friend, Lord, and the fire rekindled. More of Him, and less of me.

Well, that's bout it.

(was listening to Rebecca St. James "Shadowlands" on iTunes)

I will update on my chronicles if time permits.